Dreams vs. Reality...Jesus in them all

How do I remember things without stressing over them? It's as if I have trained myself to forget all things stressful from my past...even little things like a customer at work, so I can sleep at night. But when I find myself randomly thinking about any of these things, I automatically feel stressed. This brings several things into my mind...fear, shame, guilt...and even worse when I create crazy dreams at night that intermingle certain events into my current life. When I wake I sometimes have a hard time deciphering between what's real and what was only a dream. Throughout the day I find myself stumbling across them again thinking, did this really happen like that? Sometimes I even confuse how good things happened in my mind. So where is the bridge in my mind that combines dreams with reality? Is this same bridge the thing that suppresses stressful thoughts. If so, would it in turn cause me to forget the good things in life? If I have trained myself to forget bad things, will I one day forget good things? Maybe I already have. Maybe I try so hard to forget bad things, that I am forgetting good things, but then I find myself focusing on the bad in order to forget them. Is my defense mechanism against guilt and shame the same thing that keeps me there? What is the answer? Of course I know that Jesus is the answer to all of my problems, but how exactly am I to apply Him to this? How does one remember the good and the bad, but focus only on the good. Is this realistic thinking? If so, what then is the answer to not stressing about the bad when it comes up? Why do I find it so challenging to really understand that Jesus dying on the cross for me was really good enough to squash all my guilt and shame? Of course I am a hypocrite for even questioning this...but nevertheless I find my honesty always prevailing over what is right or wrong. Jesus' redemptive power over my thoughts is the truth, and the enemy's ability to keep me in guilt and shame of the past is false. So how then do I allow Jesus into every aspect of my mind...my directed thoughts, my passive thoughts, and my subconscious thoughts (dreams)? Should this be a natural thing for anyone who is born again of the Spirit? Why do certain people struggle with certain things that others do not? Is it nature or nurture? Have I inherited my father's inability to find happiness in my life or will I inherit my Father's ability to overcome all things thru His heavenly Love. For now I still struggle...

Father, forgive me when I take my eyes off you

"I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will guide you with My eye."
Psalms 32:8

God Is My Star

Are there any hearts of love
In this world except mine
Yes, and they shine the the stars above
On the warm nights of summertime
They are silhouetted and all eyes are drawn
And during the cold, harsh winter's blight
When it seems all hope is gone
They do not appear to have any light
Yet they still exist, they cannot be seen
Until they break through the black clouds of hate
For they cannot guide when no one is watching
So use you heart of love before it is too late
And let those who see the least to pray
And make a wish upon you to find their way